I'm sorry. Please read this well, then read it twice more to understand it and feel it.
I'm sorry that I'm not appreciated and loved for who and what I am.
I am the person that was created by my parents and a mixture and combination of
their genes, and what was given to them. I am a product of my environment, shaped
in part by the world. My friends and other family members have also influenced my
development. What I am I cannot change. I'm sorry that I sometimes have a short temper,
that comes from my dad. I'm sorry that I'm a sensitive, creative person, that comes from
my mom. I'm sorry I have brown eyes, that comes from my dad, too, and my brown hair and
stature are both a combination, from them both. I'm sorry that I cry so much. I'm sorry
that I am picked on and teased, not only by those that dislike me, but also by those that
don't even know me, only know of me from what they've heard. And I'm very sorry that I'm
picked on and teased and made fun of by my friends. I'm sorry that God doesn't love me,
but I am his creation. I'm sorry that he made me everything I am, and I'm sorry you don't
believe that. I cannot tell you what to believe, and I cannot make you love what you have
been conditioned to hate. I'm sorry that you were taught to hate me. I'm sorry you think
this is something I chose. I can tell you forever that if I had a choice I would have
chosen not to be, but that won't make you believe it. I can tell you that it is as
changeable as my haircolor, I can cover it up, but it will eventually show through.
I can try to get rid of it, but it will always be there, and will come back. I can change
it as easily as I can change my skin color. It will always be the same, no matter if it is
altered or covered up or anything else. My genes are unchangeable. And I'm sorry for that.
I'm sorry you can't love me for who or what I am. I'm a person that was created by my
parents and a mixture and combination of their genes, and what was given to them. I'm sorry
I cannot change, but I'd rather accept it and love myself than hide forever.
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